I had a strange dream last night and now I wonder if it were showing me what is going to happen in the near future or just a message from my subconscious. I have not put a single thought into marriage and the person I will be in the future. I do know who I want to be with and who my parents will be happy with when it comes to being cultural and traditional. I don’t understand why my dream has identified to me that I should express my feelings for that person. When it comes to socialising I have never been shy once I turned 18 years old, love is one feeling I’ve been able to express before but in this case I am feeling very shy to tell her how I feel. On some level she knows I do but I can’t say it because I feel she is shy and giggling inside whenever I talk about anything.
Now to write down what my strange dream was. Last night in my dream from all the people in the World I remember my mum saying to me “Why don’t you tell her how much you love her”. Now after thinking about it you may just interpret that as a message or advice but when you think about it in-depth you realise that it was my mum who gave that message because of my bond with my mum. I love my parents but I have a special bond with my mum which my other siblings don’t because I care about her on a different level. When she is ill I am more concerned and try to buy her food that is suitable for her because of her diabetes and even when it comes to buying certain things like face cream and other normal stuff I give her advice and buy it for her.
My siblings are not that concerned at times because they realise they have a bigger brother who they can rely on to take on the responsibility while they focus on themselves and less on parents. However I believe they should do as much as I do so that they can build a loving relationship and make their parents feel they are thought of once in a while.
Back to the dream, love is something I would like to express and be receiving from the other person who I have a relationship with. I assume the dream is giving me a sign to express my feelings for that girl and build a relationship before getting married to her in the near future. Problem with that is that I don’t want my parents or hers all around us when I express my feelings for her, parents have that big smile on their faces when they see their son/daughter express their love for someone except them and someone who they approve of.